Feisty!

This photo was taken just post her lip surgery. I want to snack on her!! You can't tell in this photo, but they only shaved the front half of her head. He he he. She is so cute, I can't stand it!! We got her medical profile this week. She's healthy, and apparently our little China girl is feisty!!  Her over all personality is described as quiet and shy, she is cooperative when she gets dressed, she has a ready smile, and is fond of her toys. Then... she is obstinate sometimes, impatient sometimes, and cries fiercely if she doesn't get her nanny right when she wants her. AND, she doesn't calm down right away, she cries even more fiercely so the nanny knows her displeasure!!  OH MY spunky monkey!! I cannot wait to love on this baby!

Baby

Isn't she so cute?? Oh my gosh I love her so much!!  A lot of people are asking if we're disappointed that we're getting 1 instead of 2.  We are not.  I'm working on the boy to get another dossier started post haste so we can go get her a sister next year. We'll see how that works out.  It was so perfect that we got this little chicken. She is so ours, and it feels so right. You can't be disappointed when everything is happening exactly as it should. We have 5 little pictures of our baby girl, plastered all over the place. I hope so much that we get some more.

When I had my first baby, she wasn't allowed to board in with me in the hospital. I had a c-section, so we were in hospital for a few days. Every time they took her out of my room I would cry, and when they brought her back in, it would take my breath away.  It is exactly the same with this baby. Every time I see her picture, I have to catch my breath, my heart beat speeds up, and I want to cry. All at the same time.

Everyone warned us how very difficult it is when you get matched and have a baby on the other side of the world. I thought to myself that it wouldn't be so hard, I wouldn't even know her, it would just be a game of patience. Oh betty I was so wrong.  I do know her, I feel her, and I love her so much!! As soon as I told our social worker "We want her!", my heart was all over her. She is my baby, and she's on the other side of the world. It's going to be a long 6 months!!

Baby Girl

We have our girl! We get to go to China and pick her up in 6 months. Best. Day. Ever! We received her file last week, and said yes to her this morning. Isn't she so cute???

Friday at 4:30

Friday at 4:30, my agency closes, and we go another weekend. I keep thinking that we're going to hear any day now, and then every day, we don't hear!! We're so anxious to hear! Every time my phone rings, my heart skips a beat or two. So, it's 4:15, on Friday. Another weekend of waiting. Maybe next week. We are so anxious to get our girls. It get's harder all the time! I guess the longer the wait, the closer we get. I hope it's soon. super soon.

No news is ... no news

That's all there is to write tonight. No news. No news from China, no news from our agency, no news about our girls. My sister asked me the other day if I was going crazy, with anxiety of waiting. I'm not. We are totally at peace. I know Heavenly Father's hand is all over this. I feel it every day, every prayer that is said by any one of us; we ask Him to bless our babies, and help us to get them. He is helping us, and we have to be patient. Not only is he helping us on that end, he's helping us on ours, keeping us calm and peaceful and with knowledge that He's all over this adoption. This journey has been so amazing on so many levels, and coming to understand the miracle of God's presence in our lives has been one of the greatest parts of it all.

referral

Today we got our first referral! I was texting my brother when I saw the name of my agency on caller ID. I was so nervous!! I don't know why. The conversation went very much like I expected it to, only I sort of knew right away that this little girl was not ours. Our agency emailed us the file of this most beautiful little chicken. She's so precious. It was emotional. More than I thought it would be. I was very sad that it was one little girl, and not two. I was sad that this baby needs a mom and dad so very much, and I am saying no to her. That's awful. I hope that Heavenly Father told me to say no because her real mama is coming for her. I know that God in mindful of all of those little orphans. I know He is involved in my adoption as well. It is so hard to proceed with faith. I need more of it for sure! I so feel that there are specific kids that are meant to be in my family, and I need to find them. I pray so often for help that I will know my kids when I receive their referral. Oh, sometimes a crystal ball would be nice! This has been a difficult day. I hope for no more of these.

LID

We have a log in date!! 3-6-12!!! There again, I was told 2 to 3 weeks, it took 1!!! We are now good to adopt any child in China!! YAY for US! We can be matched at any moment!! I'm not completely sure how the matching process goes, but we are now eligible to be matched with our girls, so bring it on! We chose our special needs based on the majority in China so that we could be matched quickly, and with 2 children. Obviously, things change from month to month over there, but I do feel, and have felt from the beginning, that God has specific children for our family. We have to have faith that we will be matched with our girls, and that will happen when it's time. I hope it's time soon!

twin girls.