Friday, March 30, 2012

No news is ... no news

That's all there is to write tonight. No news. No news from China, no news from our agency, no news about our girls. My sister asked me the other day if I was going crazy, with anxiety of waiting. I'm not. We are totally at peace. I know Heavenly Father's hand is all over this. I feel it every day, every prayer that is said by any one of us; we ask Him to bless our babies, and help us to get them. He is helping us, and we have to be patient. Not only is he helping us on that end, he's helping us on ours, keeping us calm and peaceful and with knowledge that He's all over this adoption. This journey has been so amazing on so many levels, and coming to understand the miracle of God's presence in our lives has been one of the greatest parts of it all.

Friday, March 16, 2012

referral

Today we got our first referral! I was texting my brother when I saw the name of my agency on caller ID. I was so nervous!! I don't know why. The conversation went very much like I expected it to, only I sort of knew right away that this little girl was not ours. Our agency emailed us the file of this most beautiful little chicken. She's so precious. It was emotional. More than I thought it would be. I was very sad that it was one little girl, and not two. I was sad that this baby needs a mom and dad so very much, and I am saying no to her. That's awful. I hope that Heavenly Father told me to say no because her real mama is coming for her. I know that God in mindful of all of those little orphans. I know He is involved in my adoption as well. It is so hard to proceed with faith. I need more of it for sure! I so feel that there are specific kids that are meant to be in my family, and I need to find them. I pray so often for help that I will know my kids when I receive their referral. Oh, sometimes a crystal ball would be nice! This has been a difficult day. I hope for no more of these.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

LID

We have a log in date!! 3-6-12!!! There again, I was told 2 to 3 weeks, it took 1!!! We are now good to adopt any child in China!! YAY for US! We can be matched at any moment!! I'm not completely sure how the matching process goes, but we are now eligible to be matched with our girls, so bring it on! We chose our special needs based on the majority in China so that we could be matched quickly, and with 2 children. Obviously, things change from month to month over there, but I do feel, and have felt from the beginning, that God has specific children for our family. We have to have faith that we will be matched with our girls, and that will happen when it's time. I hope it's time soon!

twin girls.