Still going...

We've started a whole new round of paperwork that I truly can't believe. It's for our home study. There is a 26 page document of straight questions that we have to fill out each - as our autobiography! I'm at least 10 hours into mine, and I'm keeping my answers to 2 and 3 sentences max. I'm close to half way through. Gary hasn't started his yet. I've ordered everything that needs to get ordered, and made my photo copies, now I need to finish up a couple of more things, and send everything off to get verified by the county, then the state, then the US, then one more that I don't really get, then to the Chinese Embassy in Washington. When that's all done, we'll be on our 4th and last round of paperwork before it all gets translated and sent to China. My stomach hurts sometimes I'm so anxious to get my girls. I feel them so strongly pulling me, pushing me. It's the strangest thing I've ever felt. I feel so much love for these little kids that I have no idea anything about, but I know they're mine, and I have to get to them. This lady has an amazing story and an amazing blog. I followed her story from just before she went to the Ukraine to get Mia. I knew, while reading her blog that I needed to get more serious about adopting. It was always there in my mind, we talked about it, I researched different countries, and all sorts of programs in the US, but nothing seemed right. This post of hers struck something in me, that has never gone away - I have more kids somewhere, I need to find them. It's an annoyingly looooong process, and I understand why it needs to be. I still wish it could go so much faster though.